Eggplants...

Eggplants: I have never gave them much thought before this week...until I realized, thanks to the bump.com...that my baby...growing in my tummy is the length of an eggplant :)

I don't remember the last time I polished my toes...what my feet look like...how it feels to be able to button up my favorite pair of jeans...or how it feels to sleep through the night without getting up 6-7 times to pee. Being pregnant is exciting and the miracle of a life growing inside of you is amazing but there are moments where I am so ready for Baby Max to hurry up and get here!!!  I have a doctors appointment tomorrow and I have some concerns that I am going to ask about...as to why my back is permanently sore...why my tailbone feels like it is going to give out any second while walking...why my stomach feels like its about to pop open 24/7...all of these questions I have are just me being annoyed with being as big as a whale, and I am not even close to being at my biggest.. Baby Max is growing rapidly and I feel like he has absolutely no room to grow any more but I still have about 11-12 weeks left, and in reality he hasn't even started to pack on the pounds yet!!

according to www.thebump.com this is what Baby Max is looking like this week :)

Baby Max is only 2.5 pounds & the size of an eggplant!! That may seem small to you..but thats a lot of baby in one little space...and I am feeling every move he makes! (I am NOT complaining about this..this is really cool!) I love being able to just sit and watch him move around all the time! I would like to think that I have him on the same sleep schedule as me...but maybe I am just a hard sleeper...thankfully his movements and jabs to my ribs haven't woken me up during the night...just my bladder.

...moving on...

My last semester of college starts in less than a week and my schedule is already stressing me out! Along with all the mixed emotions that come along with college being over...the feelings of accomplishment, failure, stress, wonder and overanalyzing what may come with me being done with college...what then? What happens after I walk across that stage and get my diploma? What do I do with that? And the pressure of whatever I chose to do, the path makes the most sense to me has to be the right choice... not only for me anymore...but for Max too. Will there ever be another moment in my life where I will be able to make a decision just based on what I want or need?? Or will it always be what is best for my family, and baby Max? I am okay with that, I just wish I knew what I was supposed to do after these next few months. The only thing I can do is take it day by day and trust in God and KNOW that he has always provided for us and will only continue to help us through this next journey. God knows what he is doing in our lives and we just need to stop doubting ourselves and Him and just take a deep breath...and TRUST. 

This entry may not make sense to anyone but me...but after writing all of that mumble jumble I feel much better :)